Happy new year Essential Being. A new beginning. A new moment. If you want to start again, you can. Take a deep breath and begin again.
And it’s five years ago today since the big C entered the narrative of my life.
It feels appropriate to mark the occasion but really I’m no longer particularly interested in the story that brought me to the present moment. It’s in the past and doesn’t matter.
What really matters is the fact that today, I’m alive and so are you. Otherwise you wouldn’t be reading this. And the fact that both of us are alive means that we have the opportunity to give full expression to our own unique selves. None of us knows how long we have so what’s important is being ourselves today. Being the powerful, creative and loving beings we are. Given the Universe never repeats itself, each one of us has special gifts to share with the world.
My only goal now is peace of mind. And the only way to achieve that is to ensure that I make the most of each day as it presents itself. Some days I can do more than others. Other days I have to rest. Some days there is pain or swelling. Some days there isn’t. Everything arises. Everything passes away. My purpose is simply to be present and aware. And to respond appropriately, if a response is necessary.
Each day I wake up, I say thank you and each night I go to sleep I say thank you. And I spend time communing with the power I choose to call God. The divine, consciousness, the infinite, so many names that can never change the fact it can only be found in the stillness within.
Each day now begins with a Kundalini yoga kriya (a set of physical, breathing and meditation exercises). I work with my body and in working with it, I forget it. While connecting to my breath. Breath is our bridge to life. And focus on the breath reminds me of who I really am. And who I am not. I am not my body. I am not my mind.
None of this means that I don’t get to be me. I am. Nothing more nothing less. I am. I am, you are, here and now. And there’s no escaping that. Even if we wanted to.
All I am doing is living each day as authentically as I can. I’m going for quality over quantity. This means living according to my values and in integrity. I don’t want to regret wasting any more of this precious moment.
One small part of my recent narrative is that I was blessed to be able to spend some time convalescing in Byron Bay. If you follow me on Facebook, you probably know that and you might have seen the little video update I did at the end of September. If you didn’t, here it is:
Quite simply, the past and the future can only ever exist in our minds. They are the stories that we tell ourselves about what it was like before we got to here now. And what it might be like when we leave here now. But the beauty is that here and now never goes away – the present moment remains with us no matter what we think. Whether we like it or not, there is no escaping now.
So how am I? Today I’m great. I feel peaceful and grateful. What more do we need to know? Anything else is simply a story, an invitation to let in drama. To rehash the past or to feed a fear about the future. How are you right now? Take a moment, take a few breaths and check in with yourself.
Given that my focus is on the here and now, I’ve found it difficult to write blog posts. Each time I begin, I find myself caught up in yet another story – of the past, or what the future might be like – and I no longer feel connected to that. So I’ve set up a Facebook group, Essentially Being Raw, where I can express myself here and now, without too many stories, and share information like I used to here. Hopefully it will turn into a safe place where others can share their healing journeys too. It’s a place for being raw (and I’m on a mostly raw diet too. Get it??? Ha!) Click HERE to join – it’d be great to see you there. And when the time feels right, I’ll write another post here.
That’s enough for now. We both have another day to live. What a gift!
And as always, be happy. Be well. But most importantly, just be.